How I Got Rid Of My Anxiety

For seven years, I believed anxiety would ruin my life forever, until I discovered what none of the Google searches ever told me. This is the guide I wish someone had given me when I was trapped in that endless cycle of panic.

Anxiety was without a doubt, the worst thing that I've ever had to live with

Words cannot describe the dread that you are forced to deal with.

The overwhelming fear that makes you question if you are being eternally tortured.

The overwhelming fear that causes your body to physically shake uncontrollably.

The overwhelming fear that you are losing your mind and there's nothing you can do about it.

The mental angst of thinking you will never be able to return to "normal." Thinking that your brain is somehow compromised. Broken in a way that seems individually complex to YOUR brain.

I used to think that I would never be able to get rid of my anxiety, and I am forever grateful that wasn't the case.

My anxiety journey: When a casual experiment turned into years of suffering

My anxiety journey started when I was 19. I tried marijuana, mostly out of curiosity, not knowing that it would send me into a full-blown panic attack with slight psychosis.

Imagine if all of the feelings in your body were laid out in front of you in separate vials, then imagine them all poured out and replaced with fear. It was absolute, overwhelming fear.

I don't know how else to describe it. It was without a doubt, the scariest thing I've ever experienced.

My mind made me believe that I had died, and that I would experience my life as a "spectator" in a weird parallel universe. Like someone else was taking control of my actions and there was nothing I could do about it.

I thought this was going to last forever. That I would not regain control. That I was doomed to "watching" myself make all of the wrong decisions and eventually end up homeless, with nothing I could do about it.

This might sound crazy to some of you reading this but in the moment it was absolutely real for me.

The morning after: When reality became a nightmare

I woke up the next morning hoping and praying that I would be back to normal.

Nope, I still had the fear, the unescapable fear.

I went to Google to try and find answers. I wanted to see why this overwhelming angst wouldn't go away. I remember coming to a Reddit post where someone asked a similar question, and the top answer was something like "sounds like that might've given you anxiety, like the kind of anxiety you'll have to live with."

My heart dropped reading that. I have to live with this for the rest of my life? There's no way, I don't even know if I'll be able to function with this. Did I end up in Hell somehow? How could smoking weed once change my entire life like that?

I didn't know it at the time, but I would have to deal with this anxiety for the next 7 years of my life.

When existence itself becomes painful

There were times that the anxiety would get so bad that I would think about not living anymore. I thought there was no way I'd be able to continue living this hellish experience.

Throughout these 7 years I would go on the internet searching "how to get rid of anxiety" or "how to stop panic attacks." I tried so many different things and nothing seemed to work.

I even had what's called derealization & depersonalization, where reality itself feels artificial. It's like being trapped in a vivid dream where nothing feels authentic. Imagine a glass wall between you and everything you see and touch. This terrified me because I felt I was losing touch with reality.

I later learned this was actually a common anxiety symptom, not a sign of losing my mind.

The breakthrough insight: Feelings create thoughts, not the other way around

I used to think that my thoughts were making my anxiety worse. I would have an anxiety provoking thought and I would try my hardest to just stop thinking about it.

One key insight I learned was that your feelings produce your thoughts, not the other way around. The anxiety was giving me the thoughts. I would then dwell on these thoughts and spiral down further and further.

I realized this one day when I was not feeling the anxiety at all. I purposely tried to dwell on the thoughts I believed were making my anxiety worse. Guess what happened? Nothing. These thoughts had no effect on me at all.

That's when I realized it's not the thoughts that are giving you anxiety, but your anxiety giving you the thoughts. This insight helped me because when the anxiety would come back, I would say to myself "your feelings produce the thoughts, not the other way around."

The Solution: How I Finally Got Rid of Anxiety for Good

I'm sure you've probably heard people say to exercise, get good sleep, get enough sunlight, drink enough water, eat healthy, reduce your stress, and so on.

These things do work, but I had to calm my nervous system before I implemented these things.

Now, I never wanted to take prescription medication because I wanted to get rid of the anxiety in the most natural way possible. So I started taking:

• L-Theanine 600mg (naturally found in green tea)

• Magnesium 500mg

• Glycine 2000mg

I would take these every night. It is so simple, but this combination single-handedly brought my nervous system down.

After taking these for 1-2 weeks, my nervous system was calm enough for me to incorporate lifting weights, getting enough sunlight, drinking enough water, eating clean, etc. These are the things that will actually kill the anxiety with enough time, but you have to calm the nervous system before you implement these things.

After roughly a month, I cut the L-Theanine back to 200mg and kept the others just because they are so good for sleep.

If someone told me to take these at the beginning of my anxiety journey, it would have saved me from SO MUCH PAIN. I know it may be hard to believe for some of you, but this combination actually got rid of my anxiety. Like gone. Poof. Non-existent.

Important Note: This is my personal experience, not medical advice. Please consult with a healthcare professional before starting any supplement regimen, especially if you have existing health conditions or take medication.

My Three-Step Path to Freedom

Sometimes I think I went through this anxiety experience just so I would be able to help people that have had similar experiences. So here it is laid out:

Step 1:

• L-Theanine 600mg

• Magnesium 500mg

• Glycine 2000mg

Step 2:

• Lifting weights

• Getting an abundance of sunlight

• Drinking enough water

• Eating cleaner (cut out seed oils, processed food, etc.)

• Getting your bare feet on the earth or body in an ocean/lake

• Optional: Ice baths & Sauna

Step 3:

• Align your life with your purpose (quit that job you dread going to)

• Live where you want to live

• Stand up for yourself

• Run towards fear, not away from it

It's important for me to stress that you have to make sure you do these things in order. You can't skip steps 1 and 2 and go straight to 3.

You have to do these things in order, trust me

"Run towards fear, not away from it"

Once you get here, anxiety will be something of the past. You start to rewire your brain and you realize how capable you truly are.

I used to have so much anxiety, even if I knew logically nothing was wrong. I went from that, to now being a police officer. I am more calm and at peace now than I ever was with anxiety.

Going on dangerous calls every day made me realize that running towards fear makes you less afraid. I used to be afraid of death, and I can't believe I've actually gotten to a point where it doesn't even affect me. If you could have seen how the thought of death affected me, you wouldn't believe that last sentence. 8 years ago I would not even think it was possible to get to this point.

My hope for you

If you are in a place of absolute fear and you have tried countless things to make your anxiety and panic go away, know that I was there too. I was there and now I am on the other side. I promise you I thought I would never get here. I thought I would never be able to return to "normal."

Please do not give up.

I hope this letter finds the right people. Writing this will have been more than worth it if this helps someone get rid of their anxiety. This is the kind of thing that would have done wonders for me in my journey.

If you want someone to talk to, feel free to message me.

Thanks for reading,

- Savaghn